I looked at the scale on Sunday of last week and it read a number that I wasn’t too proud to say I relapsed to. Now I know some of you are reading this and are rolling your eyes. BUT I lost all those extra lbs. last spring, only to place them back on my body. HUGE bummer, because I know better.
At first I was in shock! “How could this be? I am eating right. . . Am I eating right?” I fell off the band wagon exercising, so I wanted to blame that on my depression. A lot of things have been going on in the past few month involving my family that have shook me to my core. So with that said, I haven’t had any motivation. Yeah, do you hear tiny violin in the background? I know.
I decided after looking in the mirror, feeling no confidence, and always on the edge of a meltdown, I should have a goal to help me feel/be healthier and keep my body tone. The goal is to loose 30 lbs. by the time I turn 30. Which is June 19th, 2011. I can do this. AND even if I don’t make the goal on time, I’m gonna try to push through. If you feel the need to do the same, join me! I am going to be as transparent as I can. If I can do this, anyone can.
Today I am on day 4.
The first few days have been rough. I want to start by saying what diet plan I am doing. It is . . . wait for it. . . . not a diet. It’s gonna have to be lifestyle change. I am going back to my primal roots – for the most part. You’ve all heard the saying. Well, we know it to be true. But still with that in mind, anything you put into your mouth is considered “your diet”. The first thing I did was stop with the soft drink beverages. Not only are they loaded with high fructose corn syrup, they are extra calories in liquid form. Plus, if you are a woman, the carbonation does havoc on your bone density. = very bad news.
Which brings me to high fructose corn syrup. I gotta admit right here, I have had a love/hate relationship with this bad boy. You know the kind… in the morning you want to start out your day right and have good intentions to eat some oatmeal, have a healthy lunch. THEN 3:00 PM… there you are, you got the case of the “I NEED SOMETHING SWEET RIGHT NOW! I’ll even do a intravenous drip of the stuff… give it to me!” Some how you morphed into Dr. Jackal and Ms. HYDE. Well, that may be extreme, but some days it has been pretty rough. Don’t even get me started with my addition to chocolate.
I decided to eliminate high fructose corn syrup, (as best I could) by just looking at the label. You know the white box on everything we eat other than fruits and veggies. In our culture it is super hard to eat anything without it as the main ingredient. Try it. I dare you – to look at the package you are eating and not find the little devil. It is in most yummy things we eat. So there is goal number one. Now I do agree, it is okay to eat this in moderation. BUT right now, I have hardly any will power, so I’m not going down that slippery slope.
“Well, what are you eating then?” Glad you asked. My diet is not about looking at the restrictions. (Which is a huge mind game.) It is about what I CAN eat! I love oatmeal. It is good for you too. I’m not talking about the instant stuff. I mean old fashioned Quaker oatmeal.
I choose not to do instant for a reason. I like the texture so much more better, and it doesn’t get mushy. I usually got five minutes in the morning as my boys are eating. Today I discovered putting a sliced banana in it to add a little “natural” sweetener. It was just what I needed. Plus, the banana has potassium. I usually have tea. I like English Breakfast, but we are out of that, so had to settle for Lipton instead. I don’t add anything to it. I am a traditionalist when it comes to my tea. I like it naked. BUT on occasion, I have been known to love me some sweet tea!
I am eating anything that isn’t overly processed like boxed meals, breads, pasta, lunch meat. I am eating everything that consists of a fruit or veggie. So for my snacks that is just what I have. Some how we have an over abundance of oranges in our house, so that stock pile is dwindling. Yah!
I went to the grocery store yesterday, and I picked up some fresh spinach, mushrooms, chives, radishes, peppers, bananas, onions, asparagus, grapes, and pears (my favorite fruit by the way) . I also happened to get an amazing Raspberry Walnut vinaigrette.
So yummy! I can’t even describe the party in my mouth that went on, when I had my salad for lunch. That was all for less than $25. So any time I had a snack hankering, I picked up something water soluble. Go figure, driving home last night from church, I was craving something crunchy – my radishes were calling my name. A first for me!
I am keeping my hunger pains away by drinking my water! DRINK your WATER people! Sometimes when you think you are hungry, you aren’t. So try it. It really does curb overeating. I am also adding nuts to this diet. Protein helps you be fuller longer. I love pistachios and almonds – put some Nestle chunky chips in the mix and tada … you have a great trail mix in my opinion!
I love beef, but have been reading up on red meat. So I am going to try to avoid it when I can. I do like fish, and the occasional grilled chicken.
For my dinner, I have been keeping it low keel by having some multigrain cheerio’s. There is a hint of sweetness in it. I am going to try to get some Kashi cereal next time I go to the store.
I think their stuff is great for eating healthy. Before I go to bed, I love having a pear and mint tea. So relaxing!
As far as the scale is concerned, I decided like on biggest loser, I am only going to weigh myself once a week on Monday mornings. I get so depressed about the numbers on the scale, so much so it can really affect my mood for the day. You think there may be something wrong with me? Well, as sad as that is… somedays it rings very true. SO very hard for me to admit.
The exercise portion of my goal is moderate. I want to do at least one hour a day. Be that very early morning, when my son goes to preschool, or in the evening. I am a runner. It is in my DNA – I love it. Though I am not one to run fast. I do a quick jog. I have told people before, it may look like I am walking, but in my head I am running my best race. I have been only running one mile lately. When I get to a certain stage, I feel like a wall is there. I eat before I go, I just have to push through it.
I have been able to run 4 miles in one stretch. SO I know it can be done. It is just after I ran 4 miles last summer, I had groin pain for two months. Needless to say, it has been hard to get back where I was. I also enjoy the machines at the YMCA, and the stretch and tone class they provide. I like to switch it up every now and then. Side note: by doing so it creates muscle confusion, and gets your body tone faster!
The first couple of days have been rough. BUT I have noticed my mood changing, and becoming more pleasant. You are what you eat. Really! If you are eating junk, you are going to have a junky attitude. Well, at least that what it means to me.
Lastly, the main reason I want to do this challenge is so I take better care of what God has given me – my health. ”19 Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own;20 you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies.” (1 Cor. 6:19-20)
That is the best I can do.